am i a lab rat.. awe yes, eek eek

those of you who have a self denial of ADD and ADHD ignore this (i suffer your plythe - made up word for ignorance of what is obvious and factual, it is clinical and real, face it) well i am off the stratera, clean for about four weeks, after the girlie man incedent and nasty side effects i figured it wasnt worth it. im on to bigger and better rx's now. welcome the intrusion, adderall. well i will list the side effects once i see the effects in me. the thought of legalized and low ammounts of amphetamine slightly hinders my desires to fix me yet at the same time i say bring them on only 2.5mgs a day so far, we'll kick it up here soon.

living with a condition that 98% of people say "oh i totally know what you are talking about" when in reality they haven't a clue, is a far cry of ill compassion. the distance between my sanity and crazy insanity is.. well... all my scales measure in 16ths, not small enough. the stuff that goes through my head on a daily basis, no on an hourly basis, no, smaller, on a five minute basis has enough information to keep the common person busy for days and i somehow am suppose to or expected to suppress this to simple coplenar thoughts of educated speech efforts and rigid feelings. pssh. teachers, professors, adults, parents, head this warning, we think mucho differently, you dream to be rich and wealthy, own a big house have the perfect family, have all your dreams come true. do you know my wildest dream? to be able to comprehend just a few days of life and be able to do and think like the person next to me. aye, don't talk to me about how you relate, lets see the test scores, mwah, shut it. i get really sick of people who second guess the subject and play it off as relative to doctors prescribing meds just to get incentives from the drug companies. true this may happen but that doesnt mean it is all made up. live a day in my shoes and then we can talk, well if i had the choice, your shoes are mine, see ya, *shaun is outta here in your shoes faster than speedy gonzalez wearing jet shoes*